I don't know how...

How to stop over-eating, stuffing my face with delicious food. I don't know how to not take that second helping, piling my plate as high as the first helping. I have this never ending hunger, like I'm not full until all the food dishes are completely empty.

Help me, I need to help myself. I.don't.know.how.to.stop.

I should probably take myself to the dr and see if they can help me. It's making that ever lasting appointment. Calling and actually doing it is what freaks me out.

I also found out that, my one and only decent family memeber on my dads side, passed away in september and no one fucking told me. NO ONE!!! I am so hurt my this. I found out on Dec 21st. Just 4 short days before christmas. Yea, right, you didn't have my number.. I know aunt kept it in her little address/phone number book.
I mean I know there's not a lot I can do about it now. What's done is done, but it still stings you know.

Then, yesterday, my dear friend got diagnosed with cervical and ovarian cancer. Sigh. She's only 31. I hope it hasn't spread but I don't know.

Well there's my most random disorganized post of all...

It's not nice..

To be getting a cold the week of christmas. This is lame. I woke up this morning with a tight feeling in my chest, known as, the beginning of Mr. Chest cold. I hate this. It really blows, but what can I do except take some pills and hope that I don't get everyone else sick in the house.

Zicam here I come. I better just pick up some dayquil and nyquil while I am at it.
Have I already mentioned that I hate this? Because I really hate this.

OK enough whining.